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Hi to everyone who's passing by. I'm K.soon, n this is a miserable blog of mine..lol. feel free to leave a tag if u ever visit..

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perhaps, this is life... unpleasant things, or should i say, things that you deem as 'unpleasant'? Its human nature to be sometimes, prejudice. You can't be perfectly sane, and you can't be insane, its just when it shows... Sometimes you are under pressure, and thus have to tolerate till a certain extent... but can it really be put under control? So far, i doubt i can till now, especially when group work is required. I do not know how to express it, nor do i think it is appropriate, if it means thinking for people, i would then, be inviting trouble. Between two boundaries, which side am i supposed to take? Am i to secure a 'sane' reputation? or sacrifice it? Am i to release this reputation for the sake of the project ? But that would mean creating trouble for the other two groups, am i? This fix, is difficult to get out of. It is obvious, i would not work well in that situation, if i escape from the job, would it leave a bad impression? what am i to choose?
I really hope for a change of environment. Although there are few friends who i know are friends now, what about the bigger group? i got a feeling, they are losing trust. I won't, and would never enquire about these questions in front of them. Choosing a group is such a tedious task, why for what sake, is there such trouble for me? Is it a task? Or a challenge? If time were to reverse, everything might turn out fine... Its so different from the past. And from then, the problem aroused, and everything seems to be falling... falling... gone...
Its good, to know more friends, but, the main point is: Are they worth your trust, and are they worthy? This, would only surface, under extreme conditions + pressure. In your life, no doubt, one can have as many friends as he wants, the fact is, how many of them are worthy friends? Make a decision, and consider, before saying: Hey, you are a true friend.
Between justice and prejudice, one might state that justice should be practiced all the time, but when it comes to a situation, one would find it difficult to practice what he preached. You would see, in time to come... and then, you either run, or face it. For my situation, i rather run, because facing it, isn't the best choice, and i know it... Perhaps somebody might understand.. someday.. sometime....
Illusionized. Monday, May 22, 2006;6:16 PM